Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Here. Now. Today.
My father walked in while I was baking. I was so caught up in what I was doing, I didn't realize he was standing there. I was busy bouncing around the kitchen, singing as I worked. "You look happy. It makes me happy to see you so happy."
His comment took me a little by surprise. The passed few weeks have been a bit stressful and I guess I didn't realize how much of a toll it was all taking until now. I know I haven't been myself lately. It's been hard to find reasons to smile. I've been so focused on the future, worried about different things…it's been hard to see anything else.
I've tried to stop thinking about all the 'what ifs'. And while I can't completely forget them, I've been more focused on the present, enjoying the little things and allowing myself to laugh again. This last week, I've felt more like myself. I know that the worries of 'tomorrow' are still around, I can't avoid them, but for now, I'm letting myself enjoy today.